phii (local floofgirl cutie) @phseiff@toot.phseiff.com

tired: me
wired: not me i'm just tired
inspired: not me either i'm just reimplementing a framework it's pretty boring

it's a little known fact but gpn actually stands for getting phii nailed

hey my skin is itching terribly underneath my estrogen patch could someone who's shorter than 2 atoms pls crawl underneath my patch to scratch me

hard to choose between the millions of memes i have saved but those are some mooood ones

sgdzfdzfudju4zrgf i also wanna make a pride moodboard w/o downloading any new images but there are just too many gay queer doggirlcoded images on my phoney 😔

goshhhhh i hope they'll have banana tschunk at gpn that'd be so poggers,,,,,,

the existence of salad dressings implies the existence of salad nudity

i need to introduce anti-inflation regulations for being called a good girl lest it stops being special and looses its market value as an incentive to become an even better girl

<-- very müdischnuffi rn

pronoms? yea i'm also very pro noms 😋

18 months on hrt now and still not always passing :/

hate how whenever i try to explain to my mother that her behavior and actions are abusive and that i don't owe her whatever she demands of me she starts to bring her narrative of how i'm actually super spoiled by her and freeloathing all the time, and i just can't argue against her properly bc whenever i argue with her i start stammering and not finding the right words and eventually i have to give up bc i get too stressed and then she counts that as a victory. and i can literally tell her the same thing for years every second day and she just dismisses it until eventually she's like "btw that word you're always using in arguments, i don't even know what it means; can you explain?" and then i learn that all the time she let me talk into empty space, and when i explain the word to her it changes exactly nothing

canon is such a media illiterate concept tbh. like it asks the question of "what is real within the world of xyz" but well, nothing is, because the world doesn't exist. none of it is real. and apart from that, who gets to decide what's real? so you're saying that if the author of a book says on twitter that smth is real within its "canon" then that's true, and if they commission someone to write a 2nd volume to it then that's also canon even tho they didn't even make that up themselves, but if a third person makes an unlicensed 3rd installment then that isn't canon? so you're not only basing your understanding and interpretation of prosaic art on some perceived made-up universal truth about what happens beyond what the work you're reading explicitely tells you, but you're also letting the people who own the legal rights to said work (and ONLY them) decide what said universal truth is??

"any book's meaning, implications, content and correct interpretation (which totally exists btw) is determined by what the owners of its IP say it is. the book itself only has a say in this if its IP owners don't say smth contradicting. and another book that was only perceived and made after the original book was already finished can also change the meaning of a book, but only if it was officially licensed by the IP owners; otherwise it is of no cultural relevance for any interpretation of the original book and is in fact misinformation (even tho both original media and fanfiction are both equally made-up)" is literally a bootlicker mindset towards the corporations that seek to monopolize storytelling and creativity

humans have always told tales and built upon other ppl's tales until they become collective myths for the enjoyment of both storytellers and listeners, and that's an important part of culture i think, and now whenever a tale is successfull corporations "buy the rights to it" so they can decide which storytellers additions to the myth are "truth" and which are "lies", and most people (incl leftists) question neither whether this made-up true-false-binary in regards to collective myths is real nor whether we should rlly let whoever has the most money define it

my mother is gonna get back home soon and i wanna hide :(

the more time i spend around ppl who treat me with respect and as an autonomous human being the more comically cartoonishly evil my mother (& partially sister) appear to me

like how is this real. she's like a cartoonishly malicious fostermom or stepmom from a gritty darkish fairy tail or disney movie and not like a Real Nuanced Person tbh

when me and my relatives watched disney's Tangled we were like "why did they kill the witch in the end she wasn't that bad of my mother she was actually rlly nice and caring :(" and now i finally get why we thought that! it's bc our reference point was fucked !!

also you're allowed to ask your friends for help in getting hrt no matter how unimportant you think you and your need to have it are

if you want it or you want to try it then you deserve the world to stop turning to give it to you even if it turns out you didn't need it later

you can medically transition in any direction you want to matter your gender

you don't even need to be trans or be sure you're trans or be sure of your gender for that

and you can transition both for positive reasons (to get smth) as well as negative reasons (to not get smth)

you don't need to have gender figured out before you do that, you can do it in any order you want

and you're also allowed to just try it out, or to dedicate yourself to it without doing so

and no matter which order you do it and what you do, the journey of following your heart is always beautyfull, and also poggers ❤️